It hurts.

Dear Father,

I pray. I pray for your guidance. I pray for strength and courage. I don't know why I feel so afraid all of a sudden. Feeling as if I have no shelter and no comfort. I hate this feeling and I hate him. I hate what he has done to me. Father I pray you will help me heal. Help me get through this. Forgive me for having hateful thoughts, it hurts. It hurts so much I wonder if he feels the same? I doubt it. Forgive me father. I need you right now. So badly.
Thank you for being there for me right next to me. Right now I need you even more.
Help me heal. Help me be a better person. Help me remove all the hateful thoughts and perhaps help me face it as time goes by. Amen.

Wishful Thinking

Not only I have wonderful friends, I wished you too would be as wonderful as my friends.
As time passes, people change. Some change for the better, some not. Even though I've never met you, I believe you're a good person. A beautiful soul. Someone who shares the same faith in God. I wish you well. You and your family. Till then.. :)

That Look

I'm down with the monday blues..

I was just thinking... have you ever noticed one's facial expression when they were about to leave you without your knowledge. I've not only experienced it I, too have given that that look. I don't know if you can picture it but it's an expression filled with reluctance, a sense of sorrow and it somehow portrays a feeling of "I love you but I have to let go".

It's weird how I well I can picture it..the day a close friend decided to leave and the day I left someone dear to me..

I hope I'll never have to experience it or give that look ever again...

F.U.N :)

Past few weeks have been pure fun with family and friends. :D Joyful moments to remember! On the other hand, uni work is pilling up. :( Heaps to do and so little time. Goodbye procrastination. You will be missed...haha!

Current status of my recovery: Not too bad...holding on and staying strong. I have faith in God.
Despite all I've been through I shall put my fears and angers aside.

"Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay." says the Lord. ~Roman 12:19.

Goodnight everyone.

Right next to me.

Have ever had an encounter with God? I know it sounds surreal but it happened yet again. I don't know how to phrase it but I can just feel it. He is right here next to me. Through my hardest moments when I feel like the world's crashing in. He's here.

At times when I'm terribly upset...like right now. I don't know what to do. I turn to him. Believing God is always sovereign. I googled daily bible readings. It's a way of keeping me calm and distracted from the pain. Clicked on the webpage and.. "Jesus Heals Many People (Mark 1.29-34; Luke 4.38-41)".

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for being there for me. I promise you I'll stay strong..

God is awesome! :)

One word...AWESOME! You're awesome & I love you to bits! :)

Friday Night No. 2

It's Friday night and I've decided to stay home to finish my readings since I've been procrastinating quite a bit since I got back. I promise to update as often as I could. Being home alone makes you miss your friends and family back home even more..and when you're alone your mind starts to wander..

Till then.. God bless* :)