It hurts.

Dear Father,

I pray. I pray for your guidance. I pray for strength and courage. I don't know why I feel so afraid all of a sudden. Feeling as if I have no shelter and no comfort. I hate this feeling and I hate him. I hate what he has done to me. Father I pray you will help me heal. Help me get through this. Forgive me for having hateful thoughts, it hurts. It hurts so much I wonder if he feels the same? I doubt it. Forgive me father. I need you right now. So badly.
Thank you for being there for me right next to me. Right now I need you even more.
Help me heal. Help me be a better person. Help me remove all the hateful thoughts and perhaps help me face it as time goes by. Amen.

Wishful Thinking

Not only I have wonderful friends, I wished you too would be as wonderful as my friends.
As time passes, people change. Some change for the better, some not. Even though I've never met you, I believe you're a good person. A beautiful soul. Someone who shares the same faith in God. I wish you well. You and your family. Till then.. :)